A good night with Mom and Dad.

Dear Journal,
                       Daddy is busy, almost all the time. He is an important man in the government, that deals greatly with the army activity, so we rarely get to have supper together.
 Mommy seemed to be under a lot stress tonight.  I have no idea what she was stressed about, but I could sure tell she was because she cleaned the entire house thoroughly... 3 times. Maybe it's because I am going on that trip tomorrow for choir. Did something happen that I don't know about? All I know is that tonight we went out for dinner because tomorrow I leave for the airport and Daddy had some time off to spend with us.
 Daddy was really excited for me when he found out we were gonna go on this trip. He just kept asking all sorts of questions about it, like where exactly we were going, how long were we gonna be there and what would we do when we got there. I have never seen Daddy and Mommy so happy together. Daddy was telling her secrets and holding her hand and she would smile and giggle so often that after awhile I got sick of her constant giggling. After the appetizers Dad started talking to me about the armed forces and if I wanted to join when I got older. The truth is I kinda do and kinda don't. I told Daddy that I didn't know for sure, what would you want me to do Dad. He smiled and said that in time we will know what would be better suited for me: college, army, or both.
Mommy looked so pretty tonight! Daddy was all dressed up in his uniform, and I had worn my "special occasion" suit. Mommy buys me a new one every year.... unless I grow between those times. It seems like I am getting a new suit every three months considering I hit a growth spurt this summer and continue to grow and grow and grow. Anyway at supper Mommy was all about Daddy and Daddy was paying attention to both her and I.
 
There was something different about him tonight, I haven't quite figured it out, but he was really involved in the time we spent together at the restaurant, and even took us out for ice cream and almost took us to a late drive-in movie, til' Momma reminded him I had a plane to catch in the morning.
One day I hope to grow up and be as tall and powerful as my Dad! He controls exactly how the army reacts to threats and bombs and all sorts of things like that. I will be powerful, one day I could even be PRESIDENT!

My Beastie!

Writing about things that frighten us kinda makes you wonder if people will judge you for what you are afraid of. There are frightening moments all around us all the time. Just some things are more scary to one person then they could be to everybody else.
I am scared of a few things. I ain't a real big scaredy cat either, I just think a lot about the future, and working with elderly folk, I get a new view about things by listening to their stories and seeing what happens to them day by day. Each day a drastic change could happen or may have happened to the residents. This makes me realize how short life really is, and ever single moment is important to remember.
My major fears are that one day I will be incapable of taking care of myself, lose my memory, and thinking people care when they really don't. Then while I am on my final days, I will be gone and no one will notice and life goes on without a single tear shed for me. It is not death that frightens me, its what I think could happen to me when he comes knocking on my door and then takes me away.
- Nowadays you see plenty of people who can't remember little details, dates things are due, or some one's birthday, so forgetting things like that isn't really a big deal, the things I would hate to forget is my entire past, a recent conversation, and/ or something that just happened and everybody knows it happened but you.
- Not being able to care for yourself after doing it for so many years makes you feel as if you are less of a human than those who take care of you or family that comes to visit you. People are stubborn and will try to continue to attempt the things they can't do just because the have hope they can still do them, then they get hurt.
- Everybody has people who care, well then you have doubts that they just pretend to care and then you feel awful about yourself. We always no for sure our family will care, but what about your friends? Do they truly care or just keep you around to use your money, car, or get to know your other friends because they are interested in them? I have my doubts about people so I go on wondering if they care and think about how they could react if I was to die or get severely hurt. Would they be there for me or my family for comfort?
Working around the man, Death, makes you wonder about how you have lived your life. Have you lived your life to the fullest? Just don't care what people think, you are who you are, they are just gonna have to deal with it! I can tell you that one thing is for sure, Death is not the scariest thing to me.                                                     

                                 

The Island... From a Littleuns prospective!

In the mornings, the sun rises causing the water to shine in many colors. The birds sing lovely songs for us to wake up to. We all wake up to dark green trees and bright flowers. Noises in the bushes... Is it a monster, a dinosaur, a monkey, or a bionicle?  I could be like that bionicle that uses his powers to get from tree to tree and make friends with the animals. Living in the jungle could be really fun! If only the older boys would just let us play instead of being mean and bossy by telling us to do this and that. "Help us build a fort or Help us keep the fire going while we go find that pig." Then they just leave us to do whatever... well truth is we don't know what exactly to do, so that if we do it we don't do it wrong and get in trouble.
The best thing is we get to act however we want and don't have to worry about getting in trouble. We get to go swimming without any clothes on and don't even have to think about girls and their cooties! YAY!!! Just us boys on the island on an adventure, like in the movies! We could be those guys discovering something great that no one ever saw or heard of. What if we actually started digging?! Could we get to China?! I don't think the bigger boys would approve of that...
Anyway I am gonna go build another sand castle see if I can make it bigger than the last one before the stars sparkle in the water!