Dear Mr.Augustus Waters...

Dear Augustus Waters,
I am sorry that you lost your life to your cancerous body.
I thought I was gonna be the grenade, I never thought you would be a grenade. 
You granted me a wish by using your free wish, you showed me how my breathe can be taken away in a good way, and best of all you made me fall in love with you. ( I mean that in the sweetest way it can be said!!)
This condolence letter will probably never get to you considering you are not on this earth, but nevertheless I am writing you this condolence letter in response to the letter you sent Mr. Peter Van Houten before you died.
Augustus Waters, for you to come up with ideas about a eulogy for me, so that in some way you can be part of my funeral is a sweet gesture, however I would have preferred you over Old Man Houten, any day of the week!  What you wrote seemed so perfect to me. It felt as if you never missed a beat. You cared, and not because I was dealing with the side effect of dieing, but because you actually liked and cared for me as a person.
I need to talk to you! I miss you so much!!! I cry often and  I wish I could call you just to hear your voice all the time, and even though you aren't there I remind myself that you even though you are gone I will always remember you through the love we shared! You will always be in my heart!

With all my love! Yours forever,

       Hazel Grace
P.S. Here's a picture to help you remember me and our first date!

Hazel Grace ready for Amsterdam!

Dear Diary,

Well this is kind of a trial thing for a couple days to see if I can clear my head up, because I can't seem to get Gus off my mind. He is such a great guy! He is cute, funny, makes me feel like I don't have a disease and talks with me about anything.
Well we are able to go on this trip to visit the greatest author of all time! Peter Van Houten!!!!! Well I really don't know how it happened, but everything is going pretty good. Besides the fact I went to the ICU the other night because my lungs were so full of fluid from the lung cancer drugs... I think it was the drugs, I don't know really. Mom knows a lot about my condition, way more than I do. I do what I am told just as long as mom is happy and I ain't doing too bad. I am just living my life. Amsterdam to meet Mr. Peter Van Houten will make it all the more better!!! Then is when I will be able to ask him about what really happens to Anna and the Dutch Tulip Man and the hamster, Sisyphus!
Peter Van Houten, was brilliant to just stop the book in the middle of a sentence, it's like a huge cliff hanger and makes you want oh so much more!!!!!

For now 'til the attempt of tomorrow's diary entry,
Hazel Grace Lancaster


 Oh Amsterdam!!!!

The Fault In Our Stars!

The book I am reading is called, The Fault In Our Stars by John Green. At the beginning of the book the girl is the narrator, and she begins to tell us about what her life was like, in the "winter of her 17th year". She has cancer and her parents decided that she was acting depressed, so her mother encouraged her to go to a weekly support group. It was there Hazel Grace Lancaster, the narrator, met a boy, Augustus Waters( A.K.A. Gus).  Then the story goes on about the two of them and their complications, his being a survivor of osteosarcoma, and he lost his right leg to it, so driving with him, for Hazel Grace is... jolting. 

Dear Journal,
Tonight I went to a cancer support group thing with my best bud Isaac and the people there were interesting. You have the one's who are dealing with having cancer and just trying to live their lives as normally as they can, you have those who are trying to help others get through the tough times, by sharing their stories.... repeatedly even though they have survived the cancer, and then you have Hazel Grace. Well let me tell you something... that girl... scratch that, WOMAN, is amazing. She is brilliant in the way she talks, she is beautiful, she is so full of insight it makes you wonder if she ever gives her brain a break besides sleep, and there is just something about her that makes me smile, besides the fact that she reminds me of Natalie Portman in the movie V for Vendetta.
 
Well tonight after the support group I brought Hazel Grace home with me to watch V for Vendetta because she had never seen it and I wanted to hang out with her some more to get to know her better. Before the movie I brought her downstairs and showed her the basement and let her borrow that book that was a novel of my favorite video game, The Price of Dawn. She suggested I read a book called An Imperial Affliction, her all time favorite book by Peter Van Houten. I just hope she finishes reading the book I gave to her, because that is when she said we could hang out again.  Hopefully that's soon! :)      

Me again,
Gus